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Wednesday, July 28, 2010

July 28th 2010 No More Fear

Been awhile hasn't it? Sorry. Got to have priorities. So what has been up with me? Well got to go to Master's Nationals in Pittsburgh. Thanks to Sheila and Doug Benditz for the hotel room and the ticket. Decent show. Got to meet some amazing people like Melanie Gall, Melissa Hulett Stevens, Dave Palumbo, Kristin Fonseca, Gina Davis, Michelle Geist, Kate Cooper, Michelle Brent, and many more. Especially excited to have met Sue Scheppele. One of my favorite bodybuilders ever. She invited me to come train with her one day in Pittsburgh. Can't wait to have that honor. I went to the Arnold's but mostly took in the convention, so to many people's surprise, this was my first show. I believe Michelle Brent was really screwed out of her Pro card, but what can you do.

How is training? Amazing. JT often compliments me, and that feels great. One thing I lvoe is I know at first my triceps sucked ass, but they are really starting to come in. Getting some cool veins too.LOL. Sorry I am a vein freak. I even got one on my quad sweep. But training has been great. Kind of changed my routine. It is now six days on and one day off, that day is always Sunday. This is how it works
Day 1: Back, Biceps, Abs, cardio x2
Day 2: Chest, Glutes, Cardio x2
Day 3: Legs, Calves, Cardio x1
Day 4: Shoulders, Triceps, Cardio x2
Day 5: start over with day 1

So let's get back to Master's. Friday, I cheated. Drank some beers and things. I talked with Danny, and believe she is right when she says I sabotage myself. I think it is fear. Fear of failing, so I tend allow myself to fail instead of waiting for it. I don't want to get close and then fail. I texted her and called Sara and was flat out crying. I cried because I know better. But also I believe it is good it bothered me so much. Why? Because it tells me how badly I want it. Then I watched the show Saturday and realized, I can do this. I can compete, I can do well, I can be a bodybuilder..... No...... I AM A BODYBUILDER. I am ready to sacrifice and give it my all. I am not gonna be some elite level bodybuilder, but I can do this and do it well. It has become my passion, my great love. I now feel I belong in the gym, I feel accepted, I feel it is home. I can't be afraid to fail, because if I do this while being afraid, I am simply setting myself up to fail, and I can not allow that. I will be positive. Melanie Gall came up to me at the show and said how much weight she can see I lost since the Arnold's. She is right obviously, as I have. I even showed her my arms veins LOL, but she also seemed to be impressed at the muscle I ahve added in ym arms. Made me feel good, and really helped me refocus.

So about that weight loss. Weighed in for Danny today. It was 225.4lbs. So overall we are down 68lbs and 48lbs in 11 weeks with Danny. I am satisfied with that. Very satisfied!!! Still have a long way to go, but I will get there, I know that.

I laughed the other day. I did a Facebook post that I was going back to my Species Fat Burners. I am not loyal to any one company. I use Species, Gaspari, and Optimum, but the burners I am using now are quite honestly, making the bathroom my second home. So need to go back to Species. Someone posted a comment saying to try whatever the hell it was he suggested and said it is what the Pro's really use and then gave me a number to call. Probably his company. But I responded by informing him how many Pro's I am friends with, as opposed to him likely not knowing any. Apparently he saw me as naive and didn't know who I know.

As you know if you looked, I renamed this blog. It says Danny J taught, Danny J trained, and on My way to being Danny J made. Yes Danny does my det, and can't really train me in person till I am in Vegas. But I ahve JT and Sara to work with. But Danny does help me with trainign stuff, and will always be my main trainer. Not a knock on Sara and JT because they are AWESOME. But Danny J is the world to me. So that covers the training part. The Danny J taught part, is not really about training. It is about the person she teaches me that I want to be. She ahs taught me more than she knows about life and about myself. The Danny J amde part, is just what it says. When the mission is complete and I am on stage, it will be because she amde me ready.

Before I go, I know several doing USA's this coming weekend and wish all of them luck. But special shout out to my friend Vanessa Prebyl. Vanessa writes a weekly column for my Promoting Women blog and has done a couple interviews. Vanessa is a special woman and I am hopeful this weekend she gets the Pro card she really deserves.


Saturday, July 17, 2010

July 17th 2010

This time the distance between posts was more than intentional. Mainly because I don't know what I am thinking these days, and didn't want to write anything that I might regret. How can a person feel so good and so bad at the same time? It is a case of I know I am doing good. Weight is at 231.4lb, body fat at 24%, waist at around 44 inches. Now when is tarted with Danny 10 or 11 weeks ago I was 272lbs, and waist was 50.5, so yes, I am doing good. Yet I still have days when I feel really far away to. I do not feel there is anything wrong with this either. I think it is natural.

Workouts have been really good. Learning negatives and how much I love doing them. Started a new split that has me doing each body part twice a week, training six days a week and taking Sunday's off. I know things are working because I am getting so many compliments, and that means so much and really pushes me.

As you know Danny J is my main trainer. She is the world to me. She has a client named Korie in a body transformation contest. I would really appreciate your votes for her. The link is http://www.maxmuscle.com/MF201015.

I will wrap it up by saying, today I made some decisions. Some decisions I am not ready to talk about, but I will make them known soon enough. Most will not like these decisions, so I am not ready to announce them yet

Friday, July 9, 2010

July 8th 2010 My Day With Sara Schumann

OK, I admit it. I suck. I say every time I am gonna get more active on this, and I do not do it. So again, I am going to try to.

Well Saturday was my cheat meal, and I cheated. Gained three stinking pounds from it. That is fine, I expected. Some think I am not bright and don't realize how it works, but I do. As of the other day I was around 236lbs, which means still 1 pound had yet to come off. Again, people seemed to think I was mad because I added the weight. Not at all. I was mad because I am used to dropping 4lbs a week at least, and it didn't happen so fast. Saturday is a new weigh in day, and it will come off.

On that subject, I want to address something. I get so many comments from people, many just trying to be helpful, but really it at times is insulting. On purpose? Usually not. But they try and tell em the importance of this or that, and really it is stuff I don't know. I have had the two best trainers in the world, and now, as you will read shortly, have the three best trainers in the world. If there is something I don't know I can go to them. I am told things as if it is my first day in the gym. I don't mean for this to sound mean, but I guess it could. It at times comes off as demeaning and like I am being talked to like a five year old. I love the encouragement I get from everyone, but sometimes the "you need to cheat sometimes" for this or that or "and make sure you drink enough water" or "you should see what it is like for us" comes across demeaning. Sixty pounds people. I have lost. Why? Danny J and JT!!!!! I couldn't lose that if I was unaware of things. Really I know how to drink water, I know an occasional cheat may be needed, and the "what it is like for us" thing really bothers me. Just because I am yet to compete doesn't mean I am not a bodybuilder. Know why? Cause Zoa Linsey said I am one. She is my favorite Pro, and if she says it then I am. I train my ass off every day. I am one, I am just a work in progress. So please keep encouraging me, and the people, who know who they are, who are my good friends, you know I listen to your advice. Sometimes I am getting "tips" from people who I know more than.

Now this trainer thing. I spent Wednesday training with a beautiful woman named Sara Schumann. I drove four hours to train with her. We trained shoulders and did cardio. She even taught me can openers. Then we went with her awesome son Samuel to the aquarium. Some think four hours is crazy just to train with someone. Well you are wrong. Sara is not just "someone". She is an amazing woman and a great friend, who I am blessed to have in my life. Look at the picture, she looks amazing. Like the Arnold's I left that day more inspired and more determined. Sara had a huge impact on me. She also brought me the charm in the picture. It says Bodybuilder. I cherish it. Sara said, and I agree, although just becoming friends, I feel I have known her forever. How impressed am I with Sara? I asked her to become one of my trainers. To let me drive there every three weeks or so and have her train me, and she said yes, and at a great price. Let me make this clear. This is not some replacement for Danny J Johnson. Danny is, and will ALWAYS be my trainer. My main person. I am still moving to Vegas next year, and letting Danny take over everything. Danny is the light at the end of the dark tunnel that is my life. Danny is everything to me, and I want to make her proud. But now I have extra help, and I hope to make Sara proud. I am adding Sara because she is good at what she does, and she believes in me. I know I can learn from her. I do not address JT Wood quite as much, and maybe I should. I don't because most of you are people I have met through Facebook, and he isn't there so I just don't address him cause you don't know him. What he does is push me and teach me. I wouldn't have added the muscle and strength I have added without him. So basically I feel I have the three best trainers in the world, and that my friends is why I WILL BE ON STAGE ONE DAY AND I WILL SHOCK A LOT OF PEOPLE. so Danny J is and always will be my leader, but I felt it was good to add Sara and add her help because you can never learn to much. Sara just accepted me no questions asked. So has shown faith in belief in me that means so much. Sara if you read this, you are going to be in my life forever. You are like Danny and JT so important to me, and I feel honored to be able to have you in my life. And after the photo shoot, lunch is on me.

Danny said the other day I seem more confident, and I am, and that is because of her. That being said, I will ahve a down day here or there, so when I have them, bare with me, I will be back. I am confident, I know I can do this, I will be on stage, and win or lose, if Danny is proud thats all I care about.